The Light At The End Of The Tunnel Isn't Hope,It's An On Coming Train

This week I have gone from being very far behind to being on top of things, and at a very low cost in time. This is fantastic, this is great, this is wonderful.

So, why don't I feel good about it?

Probably because I don't. There are a lot of things coming together at this point that make me very unhappy and uneasy. There is the continuing uncertainty with my marriage, my lack of finding work and the impending loss of unemployment benefits, the mid-winter blues, limited money and bills piling up, and the advancement of my friends in their careers while I'm still at school. All-in-all it doesn't make me excited about this project.

And yet last semester I was stoked about it.

Yeah well that was last year. Now I see it as a long, slow, grueling, uphill climb to complete a piece that no one seems to get, no one seems to like, and may not help me in terms of my new career. I'm really worried about where I'm going here, and I really don't see the light at the end of the tunnel.

In any event, I have completed the coloring of the last two shots in scene two, and all the coloring – or black and whiting, as you will – of the cels in sequence three. They look pretty good, but I'm sure they could be better. Hopefully I'll get out of this funk by March and I'll be able to look back at them with a less jaundiced eye. Now, I get to look forward to gray scaling the cels for sequence four. This will probably be just as time consuming as working on the cels for sequence two, AND I have to start reworking one of two scenes that really are very poorly animated.

I just see a lot of work right now that doesn't feel like it has an ending. That's not good. I'm going to stop now and see what I can do to pick myself up.

Hopefully I can. Stay tuned...